Stuff – iThinkz

Sometimes I wonder when someone, or in this me, uses the phrase that “I want to live another life”… its a tricky comment, because in the end of the day I do not want to live another life, but I do want to have more experiences and things to do in this life… reasons it is easily confused as in wanting to live another life.

When everything becomes monotonous, you kinda/sorta feel like you need a change, and you start looking for flaws in the things that you already have… but really it’s not something you might want to do, because you should  be focusing in those other things that you want (and/or need) that you dont have at this moment. Because if we start looking for flaws in the things we have, we will find many… and I mean MANY!.. that is why I have a new quest… doing and finding those things that make me complete… because as of now I see myself as an incomplete (yet astonishingly amazing ) person. And I really need to look for those things that make me, me…

So yeah… look inside and find out what’s missing.

Would you change your life for another? I wouldnt.

ta ta

nagh

You know when you make plans and for example you say… “see you at 3pm tomorrow..” and everything is setted up and almost running… but for no apparent reason everything is going to plan.. and there is 3:30 and you’re still waiting?… Yeah.. that’s the kind of waiting that I hate… I usually give props to me because I like to say that I have that much patience… and to a certain point I do… But when the situation mentioned above happens… I just lose it. And the worst is I usually never act on the anger that I have… mainly cuz I’m just so relieved that the person got there that it’s just not worth it… BUUUUUT… if we ever get together another time… I tend to be a little more sarcastic that what I normally am, and usually the person gets the point.

dont be late.

nagh

I really dont know what’s the deal with people sometimes… Whenever you do something from your heart that is good and thoughtful it’s just plain weird when you get the reaction that is totally opposite to what you’re expecting.

Usually this kinds of things just rub off me, but… sometimes it just pisses me off. Gladly I’ve conducted myself into not showing that much of reaction to people… I don’t know I guess I just like being misterious and stuff.

Anyways… I thought, well… It’s time to turn the tables, it’s time to see and really understand why someone has a reaction that is totally the contrary to what you imagine. It would be so easy if you just stayed pissed off and stuff, but, what’s to learn?… Many times in my life I’ve pissed off my friends, either by my natural sarcasm that usually crossed that very thin “insulting” line, or just by my natural charm of being the beautiful person that I am…

Most of the times though, when this happens to me, and I like to be an upfront person. Not a stupid upfront person that would make a scene, but the person that let’s the situation carry on and later in the day or some other day I would come to this person with a classy… “Hey, did I do something wrong? Because I don’t feel like I did, so I guess if you tell me that I can learn.” Most of the times that person that I reach thinks about the whole situation and “decides” to leave all behind –probably because there was no reason to get pissed off on the first place– or maybe decided to let bygones be bygones and trully see that there is some sort of worry in my face. Yeah, that’s the sort of person that I am.

The thing is, that there is nothing worse than when you think you are doing something good and KA-BOOM! someone drops the bomb telling you that you are doing everything or at least something wrong, or sometimes you just find yourself in the middle of a situation in which you have no control because of something that you said or did.

My advice, be playful and goofy, with who you know will not get pissed off when you do one of your jokes or when you segregade venom in your words… Also try to find people that are –in some levels– very different from you, because if not, the personalities with blast each other off until there’s nothing left more than an “hey I know that person…” Also work on being honest and always put yourself in the other shoes. I know its wussy, but… sometime someone just gotta give.

Peace out.

nagh